As usual, when I’m about to leave somewhere I have a lot of mixed feelings. This week I’ve found myself vacillating between “I really don’t want to leave and wish I could just stay in Africa and travel for months”, and “I am so excited I’ll be somewhere with hot water in a week I could die.” In reality, I think 6 weeks here was just right. I’m leaving at a time when I’m still very sad to go, and I am going to miss Uganda and my host family terribly. I will definitely be upset to leave next Wednesday, but I think if I stayed much longer it would quickly turn to extreme homesickness.
I am so grateful I had this opportunity and got to “experience Africa”. There is no doubt in my mind that I will be back, I love Uganda and I can’t wait to see the rest of Africa some day. Although I haven’t really had the “epiphany” moment hippies always claim they get when they see people living in dirt huts, my perspectives have definitely been influenced. It is going to a bit of an adjustment going back to the US, and I’m actually quite glad I was only here for 6 weeks as far as readjusting goes. A friend of a friend who lived here for three months said she started bawling uncontrollably the first time she walked into a grocery store when she came back to the US. Though hopefully there won’t be any crying involved, I think I will see a lot of things with new eyes as well.
For instance, I am actually scandalized when I see people wearing shorts. I am so used to no one wearing anything above the knees that I’m probably going to have a heart attack going to the pool when I get home.
On a more serious note, I am also starting to understand why development is so difficult. I now truly believe that you can’t understand a third world country without living in one. There is just no way to describe it, it’s not that life is “so hard” or “primitive” or bla bla bla, rather it is just incredibly different. For instance, the idea that developing countries are “filthy.”. Well yes, Kampala is pretty dirty but it’s not because of the people or laziness or bad civic morals. The real cause is that there is no infrastructure to provide for trash collection. Because the streets are mostly not real streets, there’s no semblance of city planning or residential vs. business zoning and in general there’s just no way to drive garbage trucks up to most people’s homes, trash tends to accumulate. Basically, after more than a month here I’m only beginning to grasp the difficulties of developing and managing a “modern” state.
I also know that I am going to be incredibly grateful for a lot of things when I get back, not that I suffered here- because I certainly did not, my life was awesome and completely cushy. It’s more just a general appreciation of things like “Wow I can brush my teeth with the water!”
Since you’ve heard about all the things I love about Uganda, now it’s time for a few things that I’m happy to leave behind in Africa so you know I actually am excited to be back home:
1. I am incredibly sick of being sick. I don’t know if I have a parasite or worms (or something like that I can’t shake) or if I’m just sensitive, but I can’t wait to stop getting sick. I am going to pump myself so full of antibiotics when I get home that I’ll be sneezing penicillin.
2. Doing laundry by hand- it is going to be soooo nice to have a laundry machine.
3. Matooke (steamed plantains). A good diet staple sure, but I have eaten it nearly twice a day every day for more than a month and I’m nearing the point of revulsion.
4. Being lazy. I cannot wait to exercise. There is no way to exercise here or even do much physical activity, and since all I eat is starch and carbs I’m feeling pretty disgusting at this point.
5. Spoiled dairy products. Because electricity goes out, refrigeration goes out too, sending milk and other products in a weird flip-flop between 40 and 80 degrees. It is a really unpleasant surprise in the morning to pour milk in your tea and not realize it’s curdled until you’re drinking it.
6. Pollution. While the first week back at Pomona usually makes me cough, this time I won’t mind. LA’s air may actually be cleaner then Kampala’s, probably mostly because people don’t burn their trash on the side of the road there.
7. constant Lugandan. While I will miss hearing lugandan occasionally and I really enjoy the traditional greetings and pleasantries, I am going to relish being able to understand what people are saying. It gets a little frustrating after a while to always be a third wheel during conversation
8. having it be culturally acceptable to grab your arm/elbow and try to steer you towards something. I am so fed up with this! It’s never malicious and it has nothing to do with me being a whitey, merchants do it to everyone indiscriminately here. They’ll say something like “Sister, sister, come over here! This is very nice, you are so in a hurry, rushing rushing come and take a look sister, you are welcome!” while attempting to pull you over to their stall. a) Americans have a much larger personal space bubble than Ugandans b) I’m a germophobe and c)It’s just super annoying
Phew, it feels good to rant a bit. In reality, these things haven’t bothered me much until now, I think it’s just my countdown mentality setting it. Despite a few complaints, Uganda has been amazing, and it is truly a great country. I would recommend coming here to anyone (young or old, woman or man) in a heartbeat. I have never once felt unsafe, disliked, or even too stressed. Every Ugandan I’ve met has been friendly, helpful and hospitable and I can’t say enough good things about them.
To sum it all up: I love Africa! There is some indescribable quality to it that I really enjoy and I hope a few of you get to experience it at some point. I know that me bawling when I say my goodbyes here is unavoidable, but I am also really excited to get back home and have three relaxing weeks before school!
And just because writing that last bit made me sentimental here’s a list of things I’ll miss, and that you should look forward to if you ever visit:
1. the pineapple. It is seriously the best fruit I have ever had in my life. It doesn’t even taste like the pineapple we have in the US- it is in a completely different league. I actually think im going to be depressed the first time I have US pineapples again
2. fresh food. Everyone goes to market here on a daily, if not twice daily basis. Everything has just come in to the little markets on trucks and is so delicious and fresh.
3. politeness. There are at least 3 pleasantries before even superficial conversation can be attempted. Generally something along the lines of, “How are you? How was your sleep? Would you like some tea?” and an additional random inquiry about your day. There’s also a tradition of kneeling with downcast eyes in front of respected people you’re meeting. An old woman I was walking by the other day in Kampala actually stopped on the side of the road, knelt down and asked me how I was doing. Completely randomly. I nearly died of embarrassment and I still feel awful because I was walking along, not realizing what was going on and I failed to give her the appropriate response.
4. being called mzungu. I actually will miss it, it’s sort of fun knowing that your very presence amuses children to no end. It’s even better when I get to speak a little Lugandan to them and take them by surprise. They usually end up cracking up and then running away and hiding behind their mothers, who then mistakenly think I actually speak Luganda and try to talk to me. Fail.
5. cheapness. Today I bought a thank-you card, a coke and a 1.5 liter bottled water at pretty much the most upscale grocery in Kampala and it cost me less than $1.50. I am extremely cheap most of the time so I’m a big fan of Ugandan prices- it is going to kill me to pay more than $3 for an entire meal again.
6. to infinity: just ask me sometime
I get back August 05, and besides possibly spending a few days at Lake Okoboji, I don’t have any concrete plans so hopefully I get to see you all! (I don’t leave for Pomona until August 28th, so I have plenty of time)
Can’t wait to be state side again!
Kaitlyn
PS I actually need to come up with a Fulbright project proposal in those three relaxing weeks, so if anyone has any suggestions…